After being pretty sad about this and feeling sorry about "my plans" for a night, I am determined to live in the now and concentrate on all of my blessings God has already blessed me with. I know that soon I will have high schoolers and more jr. highers....I will continue to poor into them. And honestly, daily I try even harder to be a better mom. I am so glad God gives us a new day every day so I can try again.
AND..... of course, I knew it would be there (before I even looked) when I opened my email devotional today...the verse I had already decided to turn to...yes, can you believe it, it was there! If you don't believe me just go to Joel Osteen's website and check his daily devotion for today the 7th. It always comes through to my email in the middle of the day instead of the morning.
Now, do not let our story get you discouraged for adoption because remember, we are doing this BACKWARDS!!! We saw the little girl we wanted to adopt first. So, we have to WAIT for her paper work to go through. Usually you get all of your paper work started and a lot of times you get your referral even before your dossier is in China! If not, it's usually soon after, for the waiting child list anyway, this is how it happens a lot. These are children with special needs. (remember, we had a call for a referral back in June! We turned it down knowing we were to wait for Lulu) All programs are different, so if you are interested in finding out more about adoption I encourage you to talk to others and also agencies. If I told the agency tomorrow that I wanted a referral now I believe we would have one soon. But, we have not felt God's leading to change our path. I feel more confident than ever, and at total peace that we are to wait for Lulu's file.